the story of a watchkeeping officer - when you are at the zenith...its easy for you to fall

entri pulang tanpa rela...



surprisingly...i was called back home...after just about a month i serve onboard MT BUNGA MELATI SATU....

yes...i am back at home now....

and currently...i am at the lowest point in my life....

i learned the hard way that life is a series of cycle where there are time we are up and above the zenith...and there are time when we are at the lowest point...below the surface of the solid ground...

i dont wanna elaborate much....but currently...i am waiting and preparing myself for an inquiry regarding an incident that occurs onboard...the seriousness of the case had not only dragged me home...but also my ol man and my chief.....although nothing really actually happened and its a near miss rather than an incident....but it still had attract attention among top shots in my company...

deep in my heart...i didnt meant to get anybody into trouble....especially towards my master and my chief officer....but the damage is done...among others...i felt troubled...and im carrying a massive load of guilt on my shoulde which is unbearable....

but anyway....i have to face it....

lesson learnt...you were paid handsomely for your responsibilities....the greater the responsibilities...the higher the risk...then the pay would be much mo lucrative....

or is it...??

-im on a hot seat now...do you dare to sit on it....-