story of watchkeeping officer - going away leaving love ones...

im leaving on a jet plane..dont know when i`ll be back again...

this is purely fiction...got nothing to do with me or anyone else alive or dead...enjoy..

"all my bags are packed..im ready to go...
im standin` here outside your door...
i hate to wake you up to say goodbye...."


i got a call from the office...telling me that i got to sign on...far away from home...on the other side of the world...

a day before..i had a fight with my girl...she hates me for working at sea...and had hope that i opted for a job onshore with the consortium...so we could be together more often...

"u nak kita stay sama2..tp i nk bg u mkn ape kalau i x keje...? kereta i nak bayar...loan rumah lg...i had to go darlin`...i really want you to come with me but then your working yourself...had our own commitment...in fact i could support the both of us without you working darlin`...." i told her..

"is it that hard to work here...and not there...? i got friends who works with some local companies..they were once sailing..skarang dah berhenti...i was hoping u would do the same thing..." she argues...

"..kawan you dah lama kerja kapal...he had been at sea for more than a decades...i ni bru je nak start...cm`on laa...is it hard to understand the nature of my career...i could bear with your career commitments..then why not u...??"

door were slammed...and her tears were the witness...wanted to be left alone

i lit up my dunhill...figuring my best option...calculating risk and opprotunities....i called up the office...hoping that i could bring her along...but since she is working and she wont even took a leave...it cant be done....and someone had to look after the house...its my responsibilities..but then i cant be at two places at the same time...and i cant leave her alone all by herself...


"but the dawn is breakin..its early morn..
the taxi waitin..he`s blowin` his horn..
already im so lonesome i could die..."

i left my home...leaving on a jet plane...and i went away without her...
surely it would breaks her heart finding that i eventually would left her...

i arrive at the airport terminal that morning...i checked in...had my boarding pass went through the immigration...passport in hand...and her voice...her soft porcelain skins...her long sweet hair..her candy lips..in my heart...

"panggilan akhir utk penumpang pesawat MH-001 ke London..anda diminta utk berada di pintu C5..."

"last call baby..." i said to her...

"i really hate when ur not around..when ur not with me...when i slept alone with out u...i cant hardly close ur eyes..and i cant stop being addicted to ur warm touch...do you really have to go...?" she asked...

"i had to..and im gonna miss u the way u miss me baby....i never forget bout u darlin`..even if im a thousand miles from home...ur still my love..and i cherished that i had u..."


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"so kiss me and smile for me...
tell me that you`ll wait for me..
hold me like you`ll never let me go"

"cause im leaving on a jet plane..
i dont know when i`ll be back again
oh babe i hate to go..."


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the four Pratt and Whitney turbo jet engine roaring..accelerating the massive 747 on the tarmac and up into the air...i sat alone close to the window...looking upon everything below become smaller and farther...

the aircraft flew towards London and then i had to pick up another flight to Liverpool...where my ship...waiting...and from there on it will be another 7 months before i could get back home and be with her...

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" every place i go..i think of you...
every song i sing...i sing for you...
when i come back i`ll kiss u and never say goodbye..."


-come to sea and see for yourself-