a navigator`s serenade - breaking the silence

a serenade and an entry for her..i got only one you and that is you

let me break the silence
that had been going on between us

i had never did the things that you said i did
i never look for someone else
or did things that you hate the most
for you are always close to my heart

i know that i had been a jerk
for getting my self on a high note
getting mad at stupid things
for thinking that you are getting mad at me

but that does not mean
that i hate you
i love you for what you are
and nothing else
just like how i love the sea breeze
the starry night skies
that reveals the center of the galaxy
and the calm seas that comes together with all of it

we had been apart for to long
and i know it had taken a toll
to both of us
where we rarely see each other
it makes us drifted further and further away

and comes the silence...

i long for your smiles
your laugh and your small talks on things
that made you shine
like the brightest night skies
over the great oceans

i miss your voice through the cellphone
although we talked for hours
and i miss your actual voice
when you are next to me
in my car driving to a destination called nowhere
or maybe at some diner in the metropolis

the warmth of your presence
soothes my soul

your punches that really hurt my shoulder
our small and petty fights
and our massive fights together
i never forget it

your mischievous calls
that always kept me awake at dawn
to remind me my responsibilities

i miss all that
i miss it all
and i will remember all that
and it will always stays in my mind

i don`t meant to leave you alone
for being alone makes me much more
restless and uncertain

maybe you were right
were getting farther and farther away
but as far as i can go on this earth
you are always close to my heart

we are far in distance
but yet you are close

for this are a note to break the silence between us

apart we have been yes i knew,
quite and in total silence yes both we have been these days thus,
i ask for forgiveness for the things that i did for I,
long for your presence that soothes me day by day
all the things that i said to you that puts you in a prolonged melancholia and
had makes us drifted apart

forgiveness is what i seek from you
and affection in adoration are what both of us were looking for
reconcile we should from this fight and
indifference in feelings to eschew while
similarities and commonalities we seek to make things better

-serenade-

a navigator`s serenade - loosing grip

entri jarang-jarang

i have not write as frequent as i had before...way before during the advent of this small blog entries that started five million years ago...

it seems to me that i have lost my touch to write (or to type to be exact)...

every time i open up the catatan baharu....i`ve feel a total emptiness...blanked and saturated

maybe it is because there are too many sites that flourish like mushroom after heavy thunderstorm that pops out here and there everyday...that have more interesting stories to tell...

but that is not the real reason of why i am not writing for quite sometimes...


have i lost interest...?


well its possible....


-have gone to seas and seen for myself-