our old lady Melati Satu - ALGAS Anchorage, Singapura..
after 4 grueling months (grueling kah or byk menuang..?)...i leave MT Bunga Melati Satu behind and head for home...
the old lady are destined to be handed over to some company...yes she and her sisters the Dua and 3hree are going to be sold to potential buyers...at least that is what i heard from radio karat news...
sad ending for a good ship....which had plentiful memories of those who had serve on board her...
but its not final yet....only rumors....
i signed off at Singapore...this time much earlier than previous tour where i got stuck for 7 months...haha....well its easy to got off when you did nothing but painting and cutting stupid papers for stencils...not having any watchkeeping duties (coz nobody trust you anymore) and shouldering any responsibilities....
yep...my 2nd mate said he would love to do things like i did...he prefered to do all those stupid jobs and paid handsomely but to myself...i feel useless...and i dont feel comfortable working (or doing nothing) and getting paid....
anyway....seems my path with the corporation ends there....
looking at greener pastures...risky green pastures but will promise much more exciting experience..and not to mention...lucrative pays....
weird thing about seafarers are....they dont seems to be satisfied at anything...while you are on board...you were complaining like mad and eagerly wanna go back home to do this and that...but while at home..you feel like...you wanna work...you want to plot the GPS positions like you never done it...you want to shout at stupid ships who calls from 14 nautical miles away just asking what is my intentions....(bodoh)...
and you cant sleep when there is no vibrations...the sounds of generators and the cluttering bathroom doors...it has been two days and i still cant get a good sleep where supposed i should coz im at home and not on a floating steel...
supposed when you got your holiday you should be resting and all....but i am restless....i feel like i should do something....i feel like going up to the bridge...take over conn and drive the ship from point to point....haih
hahaha...humans have the tendency to feel dissatisfaction eh...never feel satisfied...x bersyukur kan2....
to hell with that....should try to get some sleep...
-come to sea and see for yourself-
